More bad news

I will keep this one short. I am sure that there is a lot more to say, but I have a lot of homework to do...and I don't know what to say about everything that has happened this week anyways.

I called my mother yesterday. We talk every weekend. She told me about the death of someone that occurred on Monday. (I would describe who...but it's really complicated). Well...guess I'll try. It was my step-mother's step-dad who died. I hadn't ever had a chance to spend a lot of time with him, but he was still important to me. Everything always seems to happen at once.

I found out a while ago that my grandfather has lung cancer. I don't know if I ever got around to writing about that. He already has COPD and emphysema. He decided to forgo treatment. I can understand why. It wouldn't prolong his life that long and would decrease the quality, even if it worked for a little while.

I kind of feel like I have had my "3" (with three bad things happening including finding out that he was sick), but then again...I am waiting for the other shoe to drop when I find out that HE has died too.

Right now it's just a major distraction. I still really do NOT want to deal with anything.

On a completely unrelated note...

The SO has been really moody and distant lately. I know that he has been really tired and was fighting off a cold for a long time (and it finally caught up with him), but there was more to it than that. I'm smarter when it comes to things like that than he gives me credit for sometimes.

It had been quite a while since the last instance of s*x...at least 3 weeks I guess. I had a nagging suspicion that it had something to do with that, but he won't ever admit to that. Last night (despite the fact that I have a TON of homework this weekend and really didn't have the time or energy for it) I gave in to make him happy. I am going to wait and see if he is in a better mood today and for the next few days. If he is, and it stays consistent, then I will have really strong evidence that that is still how he assesses the quality of our relationship. I'm a little tired of that pressure. If that is the case, it may really be time for a conversation.

I wish I really knew what to do...and how to do it.

Me