Followers and history

Just a bried note about the blog...

I added the Followers widget to the blog today because they suggest it if you ever want people to read your blog.

I decided today that I should go back and give a brief history of things. I'm a late 20-something now. It doesn't seem that long ago that I was just turning 20, but I guess it was quite a while ago. It's more complicated than that though, because "I" am not 20-something. I never even turned 20 myself. I'm a lot younger, 16-ish infact. I only say "ish" because some days it feels younger. I've learned how to act the "right" age though.

I've known about the others for many years, since about 14, although I had no idea what they were then. I only ever heard one, and I didn't know that he was separate from me. I just thought he was another sounding voice that I heard my thoughts in, like my own internal voice. I knew that that one said awful things, but I just thought that was how I really felt...even though I didn't want to and tried to deny it. I didn't find out until about 20 that he, and others, were separate from me. I've spent a few times in Sheppard Pratt Hospital because of DID.

The first couple of years were really bad. Everything was chaotic and nothing made sense anymore. In more recent years, things have calmed down. I spent a couple of years (after we had built up a lot of coconsciousness and communication) cut off from everyone. Now I'm back in T trying to bring it all back and start working through everything. It's starting to get tough, and I am feeling very everwhelmed.

I created a website for the system. At some point, when I feel a little more secure, I will post the link here.

I know this is a very scattered post, and for that I am sorry. I am feeling pretty scattered right now though, so it doesn't surprise me much.

Me